cash, career, or neither

ecstacy and frustration at the same time

Fucking amazing. Definitely worth a check out. Im probably very late to jump on this bandwagon but hey im enlightened now. I was introduced to one of the tracks on this album when i was randomly sifting through Pandora and just suddenly had to get it.

That Pandora concept kicks ass by the way. R had introduced me to it couple of months ago and its genius. There are times when the music is so spot on you feel like that damn website is the closest thing to your soul - as gay as that sounds. Just goes to show how predictable we really are inside and how our innermost cravings can almost be calculated. Great, lets hope i calculate my way into Diya's heart/pants! heh.


On a side note, immigration policies SUCK! specifically the US policies. granted they've devised a brilliant system to attract some of the brightest individuals on earth to get sucked into it, and that they have to safeguard themselves from being leeched on every other person on earth. but still, reading up their policies taxes me so much i feel i should just take what i have in my hand and wait for a better time. But then another part of me - as fucking always - asks: how bad do i really want it? am i willing to make sacrifices where it counts? or do i just play it safe, have a good time and live nice in between, and take what may come later?

Dreams vs. Desire - round 194

It is a constant battle between what i want now and what i want in the future. My life is characterised by sacrifices and delayed gratification.. although that has toned down a lot more than it was. maybe somewhere over the last few years ive learned to live a bit.

but im reminded by the fact that my most treasured moments have come after some real sacrifices. yet, at times, there was joy in truly living in the moment. and so if it is deep satisfaction that i really crave, why should there be issues about missing out in the present?